In my way to despair,
I cannot cry..
Crying is silly
As a sit-in disarrayed a hundred times,
A revolution repeated a million,
or many rebellious generations
who saw vanity and death
with their own eyes.
Silly isn’t it?
I keep a knife in my bag,
Welcoming my chaos,
Rejecting my soul,
I keep it for “thuggery”
But I can’t open it,
Another weight on my sluggish shoulder,
A silly knife for a silly thug
who tries to harass me
while teargas bombs are still licking me,
How do those get their sex desire,
Drowning their heads in the absurd swamp?!
My lover holds me tight in a dark street,
At its end lie Death,
A line of soldiers with hepatitis,
All waiting for us;
“enemies of state”.
I cross over, cursing, boiling,
My hands pressured on my lover’s,
Followed by a fear inherited years ago.
Reaching a cigarette kiosk,
We buy cheap wipes,
Drowned in cold water in the end of January,
and clean our dirty cloth,
fearing our parents’ punishment
because we asked for dignity.
We wipe the glasses of bloody tears in our eyes,
Teargas bombs has already mobbed away our humanity,
25$ per bomb= one dialysis session.
I pity the hepatitis,
Leaning on his rifle, waiting to shoot us,
I give him some crackers
And he thanks the “lady”
He was just beating with his baton.
My lover won’t be able to eat those crakers,
When he gets out of jail,